Bump it

when i was in high school, that was the saying, "bump it". yeah, i know, makes no sense, but hey, bump it...i am no longer focusing on love.. it is what it is and ain't what it ain't...bump it. i will have to just come back here every once in a while and really try my hand at blogging, because i am no good at it, and since no one is reading this anyway...bump it. (lol) i am laughing to myself. well, i am going to end this now, and just, well, just nothing.

My first wordle!

LIAR LIAR

WHY DO MEN LIE?

Love stinks....Yeah Yeah...

Now, don't get me wrong. Love is a wonderful thing, family, friends, God, but I am talking about the love between a man and a woman. I have needs as a woman, one is that I talk to my boyfriend everyday. Be it to just say hi, or hey babe, im going out with the boys, or hey can't talk long, just wanted to see how your day went...SOMETHING! But no, I don't get that, and it sucks. I am not getting what I need out of this relationship. Is it me? Do I require too much? Time and attention, and show me that you love me. SHOW ME! Take me out to dinner, check my tires for air, wash my car, or take out my trash when you come to visit, something...come on...geez! Thats why I say love stinks, or maybe its just not love. Its just two people taking up each others time until that one comes along. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH....whew...thats funny. That ONE...is there a such thing...I just don't know what I believe anymore. I am bothered, its 12 am and no call all day...jackass....

L O V E

how do you know that you love someone? i mean, is it a feeling? is it that you never stop thinking of them? is it because the sex is good? is sex even a part of it? what if it isnt? can you love someone that you dont really know or do you have to really know someone to feel love for them? what about those people who said they fell in love at first sight? is that really possible? how do you know that the person that you are with is THAT person or not? How do you know that the one is THE one? what does all of that mean? how do you know?

Still learning...

I am still trying to get used to blogging....i am going to do much better now...because I have just joined a gym!! I am happy to say...i suppose this blog is more about me learning to love myself, because lately I have been doing alot for me. The cost of joining the gym is nothing short of ridiculous to me! But I am thinking of it as an investment in me! I have a personal trainer, he was pricey too...but I do think that it will be worth it! My weight is now.....drumroll.....

161 !!!!!


Yea!! I have lost some poundage, and not the wrong way. Wrong way you ask? Well, I used the Master Cleanse as a weight loss diet, and I lost 14 pounds....but gained back 24! Man, I won't do that again, unless I am really trying to cleanse! anyway, i am using my treadmill and weights for when I dont make it to the gym, my trainer is putting me on a diet, and told me to get a journal to write down my exercises and what i eat, which i think is good....and he is absolutely breathtaking....im sure that wont hurt. he looks in my eyes directly and i feel like he cares, ya know! thats a plus for him, now he says i may only lose 12 pounds in 3 months, but i beg to differ, i am shooting for at least 20.....come on! i can do it! i will use this blog to record my ups and downs i suppose....or just whatever i want to....its mine, right?!?!??

Loving me

Exercise....

well today i did a mile....i jogged and walked briskly. i really want to get this weight off of me! all of this flab is not too fab! Last week it was 168, this week its 165...so thats a 3 pound difference, but i want to see more results! thats not enough! man...i will keep trying though. i am going to add weights starting tomorrow. we will see what happens