I want to live

I want to live with an open heart... I love that little interlude by India.Arie. Those few words say so much. That's how I feel....life can seem to get so stressful....but I listen to that song...and I reapeat that I want to live with an open heart and I feel a little better....

Being a convenient vegan

Being a vegan is not something you just do. It is a lifestyle change and must be a decision that you can't take lightly. I tried veganism because I wanted to lose weight. I do a 90 day cleanse and lost 30lbs!!! Yes!!!.....only to gain it back again because I started eating badly again. Not just because I added meat back into my diet, but because I ate badly. Too much sugary foods, fried foods.... Bad stuff that tasted good....and I looove French fries!! But I am going to be 40 in two weeks...and I want to live. If I keep eating this way I think that I am going to die. I am not ready to die. I have decided to try convenient veganism again. What is convenient veganism you ask. Well, I will not eat meat. Simple. But if there is something that I want, I will not deny myself. I will not eat if I am not hungry either. But if I have not eaten meat for months and one day I see a piece of chicken I'd like to try or my daughter wants me to taste her ice cream....then I will. Simple and convenient...get it? My starting weight is 182. Yes, and I will be losing it slowly and without being hungry....because I want to live...

I DARE YOU TV: ARISCHA CONNER'S 21 DAY CHALLENGE

I DARE YOU TV: ARISCHA CONNER'S 21 DAY CHALLENGE

Kale and Quinoa

My favorite thing to eat is seasoned Kale and Quinoa....delicious!!

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Musings of a convenient Vegan...

I am not sure what to call myself. I try hard to eat 100% Vegan. Sometimes without knowing it, I eat (yuck) something from an animal!!!! I went a function last night and ate I spoonful of grits. They tasted funny...I asked was there milk in them....they said yes..lesson:

Ask before you eat!!!!!


Lol....

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Go home then.....

So....i'm at his house.  I had a gig last night got back at almost 4 am so I stayed at his place.  I brought my tea I drink and I want to heat it up.  I say do you have a pot?  He says can you heat it in the microwave?  I says I'm trying not to use the microwave.....if you have a pot I will get it and clean it and put it back.  He says....well sounds like you need to go home then.  Made me feel bad for a second....but I love myself and i  can handle it......he can be such a bear :(

Veganism and being natural

i have been a vegan for over a month now....and i have been natural for one year. I love being naturally vegan! Since I have been vegan, I have lost 15 lbs. I have energy on top of energy and I feel great about myself! So what about learning love? I am learning so much about myself and alot about learning to love myself.....loving myself naturally

Au Natural.......

I have cut off all of my hair and I am officially natural, chem free. Why did I do it? I have not had a relaxer since Feb. and my hairdresser would not perm me and I started to play with my natural hair....I liked it. So I decided to go ahead and try it out. I read somewhere that everyone should try out their natural hair at least once in their lives. I am 37 and turning 38 on October 18th, so I figured, why not. I am not sure if I like it yet....the verdict is still out. I am going to work with it for the next two weeks and see how it does for me. I will post a pic soon, though I don't think anyone is following my blog, maybe I will post the pic for me. Yeah, learning to love me.

My Sister Aundreta D. C. Farris

She is wonderful she is.......adventurous, kind, loving, sensitive, spoiled, worldly, intelligent, wife, sister, auntie, daughter, crazy, zany, one of a kind, natural, expressive, independent, clever, cool, demiurgic, deviceful, fertile, formative, gifted, hip, ingenious, innovational, innovative, innovatory, inspired, inventive, leading-edge, original, originative, productive, prolific, stimulating, visionary, way out, aesthetic, creative, cultivated, cultured, decorative, dramatic, elegant, exquisite, fine, graceful, grand, harmonious, ideal, imaginative, ardent, devoted, eager, enamored, fanatical, hysterical, keen, mad, passionate, wild, zealous....my sister!

Bump it

when i was in high school, that was the saying, "bump it". yeah, i know, makes no sense, but hey, bump it...i am no longer focusing on love.. it is what it is and ain't what it ain't...bump it. i will have to just come back here every once in a while and really try my hand at blogging, because i am no good at it, and since no one is reading this anyway...bump it. (lol) i am laughing to myself. well, i am going to end this now, and just, well, just nothing.

My first wordle!

LIAR LIAR

WHY DO MEN LIE?

Love stinks....Yeah Yeah...

Now, don't get me wrong. Love is a wonderful thing, family, friends, God, but I am talking about the love between a man and a woman. I have needs as a woman, one is that I talk to my boyfriend everyday. Be it to just say hi, or hey babe, im going out with the boys, or hey can't talk long, just wanted to see how your day went...SOMETHING! But no, I don't get that, and it sucks. I am not getting what I need out of this relationship. Is it me? Do I require too much? Time and attention, and show me that you love me. SHOW ME! Take me out to dinner, check my tires for air, wash my car, or take out my trash when you come to visit, something...come on...geez! Thats why I say love stinks, or maybe its just not love. Its just two people taking up each others time until that one comes along. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH....whew...thats funny. That ONE...is there a such thing...I just don't know what I believe anymore. I am bothered, its 12 am and no call all day...jackass....

L O V E

how do you know that you love someone? i mean, is it a feeling? is it that you never stop thinking of them? is it because the sex is good? is sex even a part of it? what if it isnt? can you love someone that you dont really know or do you have to really know someone to feel love for them? what about those people who said they fell in love at first sight? is that really possible? how do you know that the person that you are with is THAT person or not? How do you know that the one is THE one? what does all of that mean? how do you know?

Still learning...

I am still trying to get used to blogging....i am going to do much better now...because I have just joined a gym!! I am happy to say...i suppose this blog is more about me learning to love myself, because lately I have been doing alot for me. The cost of joining the gym is nothing short of ridiculous to me! But I am thinking of it as an investment in me! I have a personal trainer, he was pricey too...but I do think that it will be worth it! My weight is now.....drumroll.....

161 !!!!!


Yea!! I have lost some poundage, and not the wrong way. Wrong way you ask? Well, I used the Master Cleanse as a weight loss diet, and I lost 14 pounds....but gained back 24! Man, I won't do that again, unless I am really trying to cleanse! anyway, i am using my treadmill and weights for when I dont make it to the gym, my trainer is putting me on a diet, and told me to get a journal to write down my exercises and what i eat, which i think is good....and he is absolutely breathtaking....im sure that wont hurt. he looks in my eyes directly and i feel like he cares, ya know! thats a plus for him, now he says i may only lose 12 pounds in 3 months, but i beg to differ, i am shooting for at least 20.....come on! i can do it! i will use this blog to record my ups and downs i suppose....or just whatever i want to....its mine, right?!?!??

Loving me

Exercise....

well today i did a mile....i jogged and walked briskly. i really want to get this weight off of me! all of this flab is not too fab! Last week it was 168, this week its 165...so thats a 3 pound difference, but i want to see more results! thats not enough! man...i will keep trying though. i am going to add weights starting tomorrow. we will see what happens

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

I am gonna allow this blog to help me focus and stay strong...record my ups and downs and help me to keep pressing on. I just got off of the treadmill and this time i did a walk run combination...soo right now i am getting ready to take a hot shower! i wonder why when i run my leggs begin to itch? my buttocks itches too....only when i run...i went to Duke University and walked from one side of the campus to the other during the summer, and my leggs were burning and itching like CRAZY!!! i will look that up and see why...unless anyone who knows the answer happens upon my blog! this is friday and i have only eaten fruits and veggies all week....yesterday i had some green beans with crushed garlic from a chinese restaurant....oh they were soooo very gooood!! what did i have for dinner......man i think i did a bad thing...i didnt eat any dinner....thats not good....i did eat some dried plums (new age prunes)....i just love the taste of them....i snack all of the time! i also ate some carrots last nite...so i suppose that was my dinner.....i suppose it was because i was supposed to go on a date last nite and i was kinda worried because i did not have a baby sitter so i knew that i would not be able to go, but i did not have the guys number to call him and tell him that....so i went to the restaurant with my daughter to tell him that i would not be able to eat dinner there....he was okay with it. anyway, off to the shower i go!

Exercise....

Woo....i just bought a treadmill...second hand for 70 bucks...and yesterday was my first day getting on it. i walked for 5 minutes yesterday and today i walked for 17.56 (18 really) which was 1/2 a mile and another 1/2 lap.....gotta get this weight off

Monday 168 lbs

I will weigh myself again on next monday and record my new weight...if its new...it betta be new...anyway...i have changed my eating habits as well. this week for nine days...i started monday...i will only eat fruits and veggies...today is thursday so i have done pretty good so far....i am trying to loosely follow the fat smash diet by dr. Ian...we will see i'm so proud of me

The first day..

I just wanted to get into blogging, so I decided to write about something that I feel alot of people will have issues with or lots of opinions about. Me...I am 36 years old and still single. I have loved and I have lost. I have never been married, and I believe that must be because I have not learned the lessons of love. What is love? I mean, really....what is love?